The Twelve-Week Challenge: Day 23

In light of the bombings that took place at the finish line of the Boston Marathon yesterday, I feel like perhaps I shouldn’t be talking about my problems here.  After all, in the grand scheme of things, finishing a degree and deciding what I’m going to do with my life afterwards is irrelevant.  There are people who won’t be going home, or for whom life has changed forever.  But it is precisely for those people why I am going to continue to write this blog, as trivial as it may be in the universe that we live in.

The events of yesterday prove that life is short.  Unexpected events can take loved ones from us.  There is evil out there seeking to destroy what we know and believe in.  Even more reason to live your life, and live it like there’s no tomorrow.

I co-host a radio show called The American Dream Team, for a community radio station called Siren FM.  Normally our show is fairly lighthearted, while bringing listeners the latest in American news, events and the best eclectic mix of music around.  Nobody can go from Carly Rae Jepson to Stevie Wonder like we can.  Today’s show, however, had to be different.  While we usually do lighthearted, today called for something much more sombre.  So, with help from some of Siren’s more senior members, including Managing Editor Andrew David and Programme Leader for the BA (Hons) Journalism at the University of Lincoln Deborah Wilson, also a producer for Siren, myself, my co-host, Jack Harrison and our Social Media Ambassador, Ben Steele, presented a two-hour news special, focussing on the Boston bombings.  We brought listeners the latest updates, as well as  interviews with several people, an American academic whose specialism is Communications, a social media specialist, a Lincoln academic visiting the US and a most poignant interview with a woman who was stood a block and a half away, waiting for her husband to finish the marathon when the explosion took place.  He got to 25 and a half miles, but thankfully was able to collect his medal, and return home to North Carolina.  Some people were not so lucky.

While the preparation and presentation of the show was more pressurised today than what we are normally used to, I enjoyed it.  While I’m not sure that I’d like to be doing that full-time, I now know that when I write “working under pressure” on my CV, that I can actually do it.

Upon my return home, my housemates had just eaten, and were still sat around the table when I arrived.  I filled my plate with food, and started to eat.  Then I told them of my intention to visit London on Thursday to view a flatshare; having decided today that I must take the risk to move to London in order to find temporary work, having been told straight out that this was the case by a London recruiter earlier today.

They were concerned about my moving to London without a job.  Would I definitely get a job?  What if I didn’t?  What about the fact that I have four assignments to do before May 3rd?  While I had stayed calm and collected at Siren, the pressure of today’s show, on top of the pressure I’ve felt for months about finishing my degree and my future life afterwards, hit me and I burst into tears.

I have a lot of worries about the coming weeks, from finding a job to finding an apartment, having enough money to pay bills and having the right place for me and The Bish to live, with the right people.  The Bish was sat in my bedroom window, which looks out onto the street, waiting for me to come home tonight.  His disgust at my lateness (a drink was necessary at the pub after the show) was marked by the fact he had sat his royal black ass on my only pair of white shorts, which I’d dug out ready for summer.

But tonight I feel grateful to have these worries.  There are people in Boston who won’t be going home to loved ones, or who won’t be returning to the pet that waits anxiously for their return.  There are many people who have been seriously injured, and may never walk again.  It is for them that I continue this challenge to find some peace in my life and follow my dreams.  Some may never get that chance.


*To listen to the interviews from today’s The American Dream Team show, click on this link The American Dream Team: Interviews re Boston Bombings


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